I am loosing so much in every single day !!!

Today is my 21st day in PVI.
I went out with my trainer Peggy, to Shah Alam area.
It has been a long time since last time I went out field with her.

These few days really tough for me.
May be me myself is the one who made things tough.

After that, I went dinner with Peggy and Johnny, sharing about things this few days.
I know, they are there to help me, work with me, fight with me and develop with me.
However, I am still not getting loose about all the things, said Peter this morning.

Well, may be I am still doubt about the business opportunity that provided to me now, may be I am still confusing about what I want now and in the future.

" You are still willing to come in early, willing to go out field, why you don't willing to put in 100% when you are out there in the field ?" asked Johnny.

Set a solid goal.
Peggy said.

After dinner, I still cant feel that I am not let loose.
I keep pulling myself backward.
I keep holding myself backward.

I need a brand new start.
I can not accept the fact that I am loosing hundreds in every single day !!!